virusoflife

I have so much to do, maybe I can get it all done today after taking my 20 hour coma sleep. With all the normal stuff I should do (updates, coding, Photoshop, and taking people around) that I procrastinate about like a motherfucker. I have a bunch more to add to that list, for one I need to put in more job applications. Oh not to mention find a new door for my car and find someone that will put on a door I would get from a junkyard. Yeah, I got into another fucking accident, this time though I wasn’t at fault (even the cop said it).

Long story short, some chick was backing out of her drive way, I saw it when she was halfway down her drive way, when I got to about midpoint of her driveway I saw that she wasn’t stopping. Well I move all the way to the curb and accelerate thinking “Oh she will turn her wheel and I’ll have enough clearance, it’s too late to stop now.” Then I feel the impact of her rear bumper hitting my front passenger door, glass shattering and flying inward towards me, I keep going to clear and make sure no more damage comes. We stop and she has the nerve to ask me “Where you parked?!”, sorry lady but no, and you just admitted to me you weren’t looking while you were backing out. Okay, thats about as short as I could make it. It’s also at the top of my list.

On that list also is trying to finish getting over my ex-girlfriend who had the nerve to try and talk to me after all she has put me through. It’s fine though as we all get ours in the end. I just wonder why the fuck do I keep getting shit on by life. Over a month with no one calling me about a job (with a nice resume and references), my ex trying to find some redemption for what she put me through (with possibly still lying to me), and now having a car accident so fucked I have to find either a new door or pay about 2k in repairs. I suppose I shouldn’t be that mad though, as now I really have no where to go but up. Now though I have to get back to other things, maybe applying to more places for a job.

So I’ve been living life and all that joyous bullshit. My girlfriend left me and cheated on me due to her own immaturity and insecurity. I’ve come to terms with it and don’t care anymore. I’m back to my normal self that everyone loves, the person that accepts that he is alone and it doesn’t phase him at all.

I’ve been looking for a job still while doing a bit of coding and graphics design freelance. I’ve really been out of it though. I’m trying to figure out what to do with my life after I finish my last semester of high school. So far I’m 50/50 on going to Delta Community College and joining the Air Force. The Air Force option really depends on me losing these last 50ish pounds so I’m at the Air Force’s weight to height restrictions. Oh thats another thing, I’ve been loosing weight and looking better everyday!

I also don’t play many video games anymore. I quit WoW for numerous reasons and have been trying to get into a much better game (EVE Online). I still do my FPS pwnin’ every now and then, but like I said, life has been calling me. If you really would like to keep tabs on me follow me on Twitter, I post there at the least once a day. For now though I’m going to get back to my TV, games, and all that other jazz.

Leaving you with this: Bayside – The Ghost of St. Valentine – youtube

You sit on your front porch, watching the street light across the street, it flickers once. Its 3:42 AM and you just realized that even though your family loves you, the only thing you need is someone to care for, someone to love.

So you sit on your front porch, watching the light. You might smoke a cigarette or drink a beer, but you don’t really need them. You watch the tree near the street light sway in the wind, scared of life.

You’ve had girls in your life, but it all soured and went wrong. It might have been your fault, but odds are that it wasn’t. Odds are that they left you, cheated on you, or just plain decided there was no reason anymore. You realize that you lose every chance to be truly happy in life.

So you sit outside on your front porch.
You watch the street light across the street.
You might shed a tear or two, but this isn’t a physical sadness that can be purged.

This is a soul-crushing, heart-wrenching, nauseating, black abyss kind of sadness. And you are scared and alone, and all you want is someone to look at you an say, “Everything will be okay. Come with me.”

You know that wont happen soon or at all.
So, instead, you sit on your front porch.
Watching the street light and the swaying trees.
All while you die inside.

Goodnight.

So yeah I’ve been driving really well and I was hoping to get my license by the end of this month. But, with a big BUT, I can’t take my road test till around September. It would be a great birthday thing but I would’ve liked to get it WAY faster. Like I said this week was great and I have another driving session on this coming Tuesday for more parallel parking. Really the only thing I’m worried about is losing my skill by that time. As of right now I’m all good with everything and into good practices but I just know I’ll forget.

Other then that whole driving nonsense I really have nothing new to say. I barely play WoW anymore, I maybe sign in once a day to sell shit to sell my gold for real money. I am really pretty much done with the game, I just really have to figure out how to quit right with my guild. Other then that on my gaming front I’ve been getting back into my FPS mode.

On another note I can’t wait for Champions Online to come out, I wish I preordered it for open beta. I really want to play it and try it out to see if it’s worth getting but I’m pretty sure I can get into it. I’m still trying to figure out the game with what little they are putting out. So far I have a basic first character set out to play and more that I’ll make to get ready for when I want another character.

Ok I lied about the next few days but I did get things done. The Hitlist website is up and viewable at http://hitlistguild.uni.cc and well not that many people in the guild use it. Oh well…

That just makes it easy when I come to finally quit WoW which could happen around this September (I hope). Currently I have a lot going on which you might not be interested in. But I’ll just go through it all and you decide if you want to read more. Read the rest of this entry »

Within the next few days I WILL be updating this site and everything under it. Also I will be creating a new website for the guild I am currently in so stay tuned for that to come within a day or two. AS for right now though I’m going to play my rogue until the domain I need is on my DNS server here. I am also going to update Wordpress a bit as some of the plugins are out of date.

So I added a new sponsor to my blog, NewsDemon. In return for giving them ad space and providing a few links I get a few months of FREE usenet! I’m pretty sure you can too, just follow this link: NewsDemon and click FreeUsenet at the top. After you do that fill out the form you think you qualify for. More to come soon on usenet but now I go to setup some stuff.

Ok small post, I finally added my portfolio and will soon add a bunch of pictures and blah blah. I’ve been playing WoW sure but mainly getting back into media and maybe even web development. I’m just posting because I should but yeah… Oh also twirl is just what I want in a twitter client. I’ll edit some more and all that now that I’m out of school. I have a few ideas but hey I’m lazy as hell. As of right now though I think it’s movie time again or level on WoW time. Not sure really.

By the way an update on the girlfriend wagon, shit is good and fun. However things seem different, maybe I know she is going to be in my life for a long time and thats why I kinda feel normal again. Like my life is how it should be or something. Everything just feels right and has a sense of normality about it. I love her and I know I do but I’m just in a relaxed state about everything right now. Maybe my body wants to rest? I’m not sure, I am however always extremely tired…

Okay, a little joke with the heading but you get the idea. I’m going to start blogging more (I promise?)! Well reason for this update is well to update Wordpress to 2.7.1 and even add 2 new plugins! Those being WordTwit, which tweets my current status with a blog update post, and WPtouch, which makes my blog iPhone/Andriod (among others) browser friendly. I also added/will be adding a portfolio to here because well, I need a job and the Internet is the future! I do also like the new admin interface of WP, it has a WYSIWYG editor feel but more professional and better then current WYSIWYG editors.

Oh school is fun too, I currently have a B+ in all of my classes without trying (one being a C, not turning in stuff). I also got my ACT scores back from that test I took a while back. I won’t get my MME results back until the fall or something. Here are my ACT scores though; English – 23, Math – 19, Reading – 27, Science – 25, and my composite score was 24. I don’t think I did that good but everyone assures me that I did fine and shouldn’t worry.

With school also comes my social life, which isn’t really there. I recently got my driving permit and have been trying not to crash or get tickets. My girlfriend and I couldn’t be happier, well maybe but thats what today will be about. I also can’t believe how hard it is to get a job in this town. You notice that when after you put in 20+ applications and only 1 called you for an interview and said later that they didn’t need you. So I’m going to go freelance for a bit, main reason for putting up that portfolio really, on ScriptLance and I really hope to get a sliver of work on there. Enough for my random bills and random purchases, maybe even a cell phone but I doubt it. Well thats all for now, I need to get back to my WoW addiction (giggle).

So… I’m still alive and full of joy. I’m still in love with Stephi, even though we have some rough times. We are still teens after all and full of drama. We are safe about everything and love each other deeply.

School has also been great, I’m doing well and getting the grades I want. I also have 7th hour so I sit there for an extra hour, woohoo. We are taking the MME this week, so far 2 tests of 3 are done with the ACT being the hardest.

I have even been playing WoW again! I think she doesn’t even mind that I play any more. I’m 5/5 T7 with a mix of other gear from heroics and normals. I’ve been also leveling a pally, it’s about 43 and a bar so far with all the BoA gear I could get it.

Reading is now a hobby again for me. I finished The Zombie Survival Guide which is a pretty funny/interesting book. I’m also going to read the rest of the sprawl series, Count Zero being the current book I’m on. And hey this is pretty much all my news. So I’m gone and I’ll edit later with links and update my blog some more. Weeee